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Post/Comment Anxiety

Hello humans of the internet! For anyone who my be new here: I’m a dyslexic person. I feel like I haven’t talked about that much even though the original plan for this blog was to talk about being in school with dyslexic. Of course that was 4 or 5 years ago and I’m 24 now and never going back to school.

I like to tell myself that dyslexic doesn’t affect any more. This is a lie as evident throughout this blog. But this morning, as I tried to read other’s blogs, I just couldn’t. And I felt guilty about not being able to force the shapes into sounds and squeeze out understanding. And now I’m trying to write this post to explain the feelings and it’s going so slow and I know that going slow doesn’t even help. This post and every post I write will have will have little errors. Since, I’m on my phone it’ll replace my mistakes, sometimes with the right word, sometimes not. And then I’ll sit here, reading it over, knowing that you might not read what I’m saying.

I cannot count the number of times I’ve typed up a comment or an email to someone who’s blog I follow only to never send it. I know the likelihood that it won’t be what I want it to be is too high. I know that I could have read the post wrong and the comment wouldn’t even make sense.

And then I feel guilty.

I want to tell all these people that they’re amazing. I want them to know that they’re doing a great job. But, who am I? I’m just a person who can barely read and write, trying to convince the world and myself that being dyslexic isn’t my only defining characteristic. Why would anyone care if I think they’re blog is good? I’m not exactly the person anyone would ask.

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I'm a recent college graduate with dyslexia making my way in the world.

6 thoughts on “Post/Comment Anxiety

  1. Aw…hon.

    I really don’t know you that well, but I’ve followed you for quite a while and I think your blog is fab

    You shouldn’t feel self conscious or second guess yourself, every body has a “thing” and here especially in these little communities we gather on WP, we are entitled to be just whoever we are,full stop.

    I think it’s fab that you’ve shared and I feel like you should let go and relax and just enjoy interacting. Who gives an eff about how the comment looks or even if it may not be totally on point?

    It’s the feels that make the difference.

    And there’s no dyslexia or anything else for that matter, in truth and expression of feelings.

    Hope this is all okay with you. Feel free to unapprove if it’s not.

    Hugs
    X

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